“This isnt exclusive to autism”. Okay I said it, everybody shut up now. Lol yeah I do this all the time too. I reply things over and over.
Gonna start saying “what’s going” because it sounds cool
“Every defeat in my mind, 4 million times, with perfect precision decisions must be analyzed”
From Sleepless by the Riverboat Gamblers.
If you’re telling yourself this, you need to be kinder to yourself. Yes, some people will think less of you for being weird. Fuck them.
Man I have so many of these moments by now, complete with that very specific shame+cringe feeling, oof
Fun fact: You are unique and that’s good. Don’t let other people’s opinion drag you down.
I’ve found the best solution is to actually dissect what went wrong. Strip the emotion out, and look at it as a chance to learn. This both lets you improve and pulls the teeth from the recollection. You just have to remember to actually draw a mental line under it. Once you have taken all you can, you have no reason to go over it again.
By embracing it, you rob it of its power. Without its power, it fades away.
E.g. I once called a teacher “mum”, in front of my whole class. At the time I just wanted to crawl into a hole and die. Now, it holds no power. It vaguely amuses me how much of a social Muppet I used to be.
