• imoldgreeeg@aussie.zone
    10·
    5 days ago
    mental health stuff - working stuff out by writing....

    I had a lovely day out with friends but struggled to get any enjoyment out of it, and to focus on the moment (very brainfoggy). Made me realise I’m further down the depression path then I thought. I’ve had a few big stressful things going on that have made me anxious and down. But it’s gone beyond external - haven’t felt this disconnected and …grey… for a long time.

    I came home and went straight to bed - just felt completely overwhelmed. Have managed to make dinner finally by putting on a podcast for company. And that’s rice and dal so I’ll get lunch out of it too. I need to plan out my work week - it’s busy and I like to get ahead of it on sunday but I’m just burned. No I can’t realistically take a mental health day or three right now either (for reasons, trust me)

    So. this week I will:

    • Eat breakfast and lunch and at least a light dinner. I can boil an egg if needed
    • Sleep by 10pm and I will be out of bed by 6:30. If I can, go for a walk. If not, just stand outside for a few moments.
    • keep cutting back on sugar and lay off the alcohol for the week - neither help
    • Take meds and add in a multivitamin (I have a half a container I bought when I was getting over the flu).

    god, that sounds exhausting. And I need to realise it is exhausting - so I will use my ‘spoons’ for food, washing, sleeping, moving. And the work I have to do. That’s going to be it this week.

    I’m going to post here to try to keep track. Hopefully it’s just from stress/burnout and I can get back out of the hole with a couple of weeks of care.

    • Grackle@aussie.zone
      7·
      5 days ago

      I might join you… I’m pretty good with having breakfast/dinner after 20 years of being inconsistent with either. But I have a habit of coming home from work, eating dinner on the couch and then not moving from there until I go to bed. I have almost no friends in Melbourne so I spend my weekends doing much the same.

      You’ve got this! 🙂

    • Tofu@aussie.zone
      1·
      4 days ago

      I’m joining you with the getting up on time bit. I notice I’ve been feeling quite empty lately, most probably due to list of life events.

  • CEOofmyhouse56@aussie.zone
    6·
    5 days ago

    How are we doing no snacks after dinner gang?

    Remember it doesn’t have to go perfectly all the time. If you’re hungry eat. If not, leave those snacks for when you are hungry. You’ve got this!

    • Duenan@aussie.zone
      5·
      5 days ago

      Failed. I did it the other way around. Ate snacks then dinner.

      Snack was half a block of dark chocolate.

        • Duenan@aussie.zone
          3·
          5 days ago

          I don’t really have a goal but I have noticed I was eating too much after dinner.

          I’ll probably have some fruit later for dessert.

          • CEOofmyhouse56@aussie.zone
            2·
            4 days ago

            That’s what I noticed about myself and I wasn’t even hungry.

            I found I have much more energy the next day when I don’t snack before bed. That could just be me though.

    • Tofu@aussie.zone
      4·
      4 days ago

      i’ve been doing snacks as dinner, but at least it’s nut mix with green peas

        • SituationCake@aussie.zone
          2·
          4 days ago

          All of the above! Plus snacks are tasty, it’s a reason to have a break, and can focus better if not feeling hungry. Might try having a smaller lunch and healthy snacks, which might balance it out rather than trying to eliminate the snacks.

  • CEOofmyhouse56@aussie.zone
    9·
    5 days ago

    I hate when I come across shit like calculators. They still work, can’t give them away, can’t throw them out, already have 4 scientific calculators kicking around. I have no problem throwing broken shit out but when they still work I just can’t do it as easy.

  • tombruzzo@aussie.zone
    8·
    5 days ago

    We just went to the La Trobe market. You can’t best a good old school market with the guy at the fruit and vegetable stall constantly shouting

  • Gibsonhasafluffybutt@aussie.zoneEnglish
    13·
    5 days ago

    Shortly after I took this photo I said “hey, what are you upto chunky?”

    And the incredibly angry meow I got back in return put me in my place lol

  • melbaboutown@aussie.zone
    6·
    5 days ago

    Gentle house cleaning and chin tucks. Multivitamin.

    I really need to start doing a small amount of dumbbell rows each day again, wtf is this posture

  • Taleya@aussie.zone
    7·
    5 days ago

    Watching Spy but randomly skipping parts of the start because i want o love melissa mccarthy but there’s only so much ‘woman does stupid clumsy things and accepts being treated as lesser by overtly misogynistic farps’ i can stand before i try to leap through the tv and attack her and i’m already close to the limit because miranda hart is in this too. Also still running a fever so relaity is trnous.

    Maybe i should watch llama face instead

    • melbaboutown@aussie.zone
      4·
      5 days ago

      I really hate that.

      There’s either the one dimensional girlboss who’s basically a male action hero with boobs and anything less than that is to be aggressively looked down on… or there’s the bumbling Bridget Jones everywoman who’s supposed to be relatable.

      Mix of strengths and weaknesses pls

    • Seagoon_@aussie.zoneOP
      2·
      5 days ago

      It’s just for the movie, they have to make it all extreme so the change is much more dramatic.

      But it doesn’t ring true. The type of woman who would work in such a place would already be unorthodox and care little for social expectations regarding gender roles. She would have a strong character that doesn’t care much what people say or think so there is no way she would put up with crap for long.

  • melbaboutown@aussie.zone
    6·
    5 days ago

    I’m remembering how I was working hard on skincare and health before the lockdowns… it feels like I lost all that and now have to start again from the bottom.

      • melbaboutown@aussie.zone
        1·
        5 days ago

        I even kept it up into lockdown but then got hit by another devastating event.

        I’ll do my best to recoup but man I could have done without all of that

  • Mittens_meow@aussie.zone
    7·
    5 days ago

    The Melb city ebook library is a bit lacking. I’d love to get physical books but they are too heavy to carry home ( hot desk - have to bring my entire life back and forth)

    • underwatermagpies@aussie.zone
      5·
      5 days ago

      Fun fact: public libraries across Victoria get State government funding as well as local, so membership is open to anyone with a Victorian address. And most if them let you join online without going in.

      There are 50 Vic library services, join a few or all of them and get all the sweet ebooks you want. Some have heaps, some not many, somebody will probably have what you want.

      • Llabyrinthine@aussie.zone
        2·
        5 days ago

        This! I have City of Melbourne and Yarra Libraries. Usually there is something between the two, though I do still find them limiting if you’re after particular authors.

    • melbaboutown@aussie.zone
      4·
      5 days ago

      The selection is probably down now but if you’re into public domain classics the Internet Archive might have something for you. Also Libby and whatever other one - Hoopla?

      You can also have multiple library cards to check their offerings.

      I’ve been too lazy to sort any of this myself 🙃

  • Pilk@aussie.zone
    6·
    5 days ago

    Trying to get used to Affinity products and getting a little frustrated. Adobe is the devil but boy-howdy do I know my way around those apps.