• PeelerSheila @aussie.zone
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    So I need to just put this somewhere. With my skin condition dramatically worsening by the day I returned to the GP, who looked as shocked as I felt. The odd little bumps/sores have become open weeping ulcers and spread over my biceps and thighs. He has taken swabs and is testing for Buruli/Bairnsdale ulcer and faxed an urgent referral to a local specialist. I feel emotionally yukky but physically there’s no pain at all, just when I sweat it stings. I’m trying to stay positive but I’m pretty depressed.

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    Good morning everyone!

    Hope everyone has a great day ❤️

    I’ll fill you in on how it goes tonight!!!

    Edit: lyrebird lounge at 8:30pm, I’ll be getting there around 7:45pm to watch a couple of the people before me.

    I’m the dark skin guy in the white tshirt and glasses.

    Also I make minor guarantees about the quality of my performance lol

    Oh yeah, my nickname is Reef.

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    That was an incredible time ❤️

    Thanks so much to everyone here for all your support over the last year or so. It’s been a hell of a ride, and I’m super grateful❤️

    And thank you to the crew that came out tonight. It was an absolute pleasure hanging out with you guys and having you there made a really big difference ❤️

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    Time for a nap and last low energy practice.

    Here we go!!!

    Thanks everyone for all your support and well wishes ❤️❤️❤️

    Edit: holy fuck the rain is here!

    Running 15 mins late. Be there at 8pm

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    Little bit of a rambling. I’m sitting here writing notes, made a mistake so I scrubbed it out and then I realised I can erase it out because it’s an erasable gel pen. Then I remembered the old pen rubbers that did diddly squat but rip your paper so everyone used liquid paper instead. Got me thinking.

    What has come a long way (for the better) since your childhood?

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    Really over the anxiety/depression :/ just deep unease all of today and now feeling really glum and dull about everything. I even walked to work in the sun this am, and work was productive, but I still felt detached and fuzzy. Cough still rattling around too. I don’t think taking a sick day is going to help as I’ll just be unsettled all day.

    No suitable rentals have popped up so far on my radar. Registered interest in a couple but no updates yet.

    Ugh. I managed to buy some veg on the way home, I’ll force myself to make a pasta dish and eat it and crawl into bed to dissociate on the phone for the rest of the evening. Tomorrow is a new day…

    E: soxcat is still here as her human won’t be back til Monday. It’s saying something that I can’t even feel that happy around her, but she’s been snuggling up against me lots. And left a whisker on tgr couch for me - that’s good luck isn’t it?

    lomg kitty whisker

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      Anxiety is horrible, soul destroying and crippling. But it does usually comes in waves, admittedly a wave can last a long time. Just hold on for a break in the surf where you will have a respite from the anxiety.

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        Thanks man. Yeah, I know in my mind that it’ll pass, even if it’s a month away, but man this is such shitty timing. Sucks being physically unwell too. I’m going to reframe my early bedtime as looking after myself and creating a sense of safety so I don’t feel like I’m spiraling. I got this. One day at a time.

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      That is one IMPRESSIVE whisker. According to Doreen Tovey (yes I’ve been re-reading Cats in May and Cats in the Belfry), chewing off a whisker or two is a love offering. You were there for her when she was suffering, so now she’s there for you. Who says cats can’t do empathy?

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      gotta tackle this soon myself. Another 2 cubic meters of mulch and the topsoil to finish some raised planter boxes.

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        I’m still base ground prepping, but expecting to go ham with wicking beds this summer.

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    Odd question, but do ya’ll ever plan out other lives for yourself? Occasionally I’ll just sit on realestate and and look shit up. Might be like “alright, if I split with the mrs can I afford to buy a unit? where am I gonna live?” or “Fuckit, lets all move up to bright! I hate it here, alright what can we afford?”

    I find it really therapeutic for some reason. These alternate lives I’ll never live out.

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      I’ve definitely planned out what to do with large lotto wins I will never have. Looked at moving overseas or interstate. I’ve considered moving into a unit right in the centre of Melbourne so I can enjoy all the activities there, or moving to a big block of land in the middle of nowhere and fixing up a rundown place.

      I think it is a healthy thing to do, as long as you are not doing it with rose-coloured glasses and making yourself unhappy with your current circumstances. If you are doing it realistically it often ends up highlighting things that are important to you - things you would miss if you made different choices, and sometimes things you really want that you are actually able to do now.

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        I do the lottery thing regularly. I don’t resent my current life, but love to imagine what it would be like to not worry about bills and just live life.

        Personally I’d have a place in like Daylesford or similar. Trees, pond, dogs, fireplace etc.

        Doing nothing would be blissful.

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      Looking at houses in locations I’d love to live in but can’t afford is a real one. Also, I was deeply fantasising about moving to NYC when I travelled there a couple of years back, asking people I met there about their experience in moving, even though I knew deep down that I’d never do it. It’s nice to dream!

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      I sometimes find my daydreaming self inserting myself into works of fiction - such a Sherlock Holmes, the Vorkosiverse etc. Probably a symptom of deep psychosis.

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        I am OFTEN on the bridge of a warship protecting the earth. Usually heroically telling the crew to abandon ship as I fight impossible odds bravely sacrificing myself.

        Good to know its not just me.

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            Usually just a bunch of alarms, explosions ect. Despite the lack of sound in space it sure is a loud experience. I’m CONVINCED its linked to my anxiety cause I dissociate hard.

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      I’d be surprised if anyone doesn’t occasionally entertain alternative lives. Very Sliding Doors.

      Pretty sure we’ve all wondered where we might be if we’d picked different doors.

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        I creep myself out when I go too far down that path. All of the things that have happened to me worked together to make me who I am, and at a certain point in my musings I realise that by changeing the things that happened to me I am effectively erasing myself from existance entirely.

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    I’ve been having after 9pm thoughts all day about what I’d do if I don’t get this job, just because I haven’t heard back from them straight away.

    I need to keep in mind these things take time and there are still over avenues open if this doesn’t come through

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      Yep. I applied for a niche job that I’d be perfect for and it closed a week ago, whyyyy haven’t they called me? I’m getting a bit better at detaching, something will come up when it’s meant to.

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        I have done the recruitment thing from both side and trust me - I know it sucks but it can take time!! Hold in there. Also I think it’s ok to contact to ask about progress after, say week/week and a half. If it’s a more senior or niche position it can take a bit longer to sift through.

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        That’s how I feel sometimes. I know I can interview well too so I just need to get in the room with them and I can talk myself into the job.

        You get thinking about how your life could be, apply for these jobs, then nothing happens

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    The afternoon sleepiness is upon me.

    Coffee not helping.

    2 hours of meetings on the horizon.

    Grant me strength oh mighty Odin.

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    Mice are so cute!!! Ugh, their little paws, their little noses, their cute eyes. This course is great just for doing health checks on mice tbh

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    wandered up to the broadbents around the corner with our garden trolley and oh my god we are gonna do so much damage at that place. Landscape supplies within a five min trolley stroll that sell shittons of good quality compost and mulch? mwah. Mwahahhaha. MWAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAA